Waiting, anxious and excited! These opportunities don't happen often. Heart racing, baby turning...want to sleep...Praise rising..! This opportunity, where did it come from? Why? So random, so unexpected, so "whatever".
The 1 thing we're waiting for...the thing we want most...to own our dream home. Falling into our laps -- a show about finding your dream home. Well, a home...shopping for a home. ;) A humorous God, for sure!
Yes, I realize that I have grown increasingly impatient, waiting for my house to call my own... "why do I have to make this work?!" The question burning beneath the constant re-organizing self... "Why us of six, when families of less have 3 times that of ours..?!"
Questions unspoken...bubbling through attitudes.
But, ungrateful? Have I not proven myself blessed? Daily singing praise for the inches I do find...character collected throughout the narrow hallways?
All is given in Grace. ...How arrogant am I to expect more?! If this becomes a matter of "proving myself", then it turns into a matter of penance, good works.. No. The price has been payed, the debt erased. Nothing owed, nothing to prove!
I deserve nothing... I am given the Kingdom.
ALL OF THIS...! For me.
So what is this window looking into our dreams? Is this a passage way to that which we want inside? But you can't always get what you want..and breaking in is an offense, is it not?
But perhaps, a reminder of the hope inside... Waiting, knowing, that someday it will be released back to us... The day we are given the key, and directions to the front door.
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